ahh. how long have this not been dusted. though i hate dusts, i njoy collectin em. past week had been alright though i think i could’ve done more. tired. the semester now continues, with finals comin forth, very soon, before ya could say ‘katchashiwabezatta’! gonna leave with a link that i was at the other day, y’all have a great day!
Archive for September, 2006
heart holly
part of me died when ya left. thank you for being there all these while. love ya always.
holly never woke
it really wreck me but holly [ my dog as ya can see in my header above ] had passed on yesterday after being with me for twelve years. it’d been different without her. i know very well that this day would come but i never would have thought that it would hit me like such. countless shards right through. her behaviour was somewhat unusual these days. i guess she knew. she even leave without troublin me knowin that i’m available on sundays. and the last i saw of her was the night before when i fix her her dinner. ahh.
no more nuzzles on my leg pants every time i return home…
no more constant yawns everytime everyone’s back…
no more seeing her slip out the door everytime it’s open…
no more waitin for her to return from her walks…
no more chasin after her…
no more feedin her her favourite meal…
no more bringin home a doggy bag for her…
no more fillin her water bowl & ask her to drink from it…
no more disturbin her with my camera…
no more watchin her soakin in the sun…
no more gettin home seeing her lying comfortably on my laundries…
no more watchin her sleep…
no more pattin her on her head…
no more…holly…
my only solace was that she left me with a 4-year old [ huppy ] & i’ve haylie [ a year old ] who was given to me. but it will never be the same.
edit [ september 15th, '06 ]: brother pointed out that she came to me in the year of the dog & she left in the year of the dog as well. ahh. xactly twelve years.
ahh. not feelin too good.
day didn’t go all too well. feelin depressed & dissapointed over a game. couldn’t even hold on to something which i’m proud at & good at. it just gotta be taken away. what could be worse than that? now everything’s crushin within. no longer believe in things. they’re nothin but a huge lie. ball it all.
